Saturday, January 9, 2010

11/30/09 – Memoir

If the pictures my mind creates when I dream were reality, then I would probably be truly happy right now. If every kiss and every touch were real, then I wouldn’t be fixed on wishful thinking.

My mind plays tricks on me by showing me those images of you and me. Or is my heart the one tricking me by shutting out what it truly desires?

Maybe it’s afraid of being hurt again so it builds this fence that shuts out what it shouldn’t: love, freedom, trust. It shouldn’t. It must stop building a guard and instead it must trust.

Memoir – 12/01/09 19:44

Taking risks means not having to care about what other people will say. It’s about taking in all their negativity and making them choke as they swallow their words. It’s about radiating with confidence when people compliment you for the risks you take.

There’s no turning back once you’ve risked. You have to go on, head held high. It’s not about pleasing everyone if you can’t be pleased with your self.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

10 Public Figures That Have Influenced Me This Past Decade

In no particular order:


MIKE SHINODA (of Linkin Park)



BRITNEY SPEARS



AVRIL LAVIGNE















J.K. ROWLING



PATRICK STUMP (of Fall Out Boy)




ZACKY VENGEANCE (of Avenged Senvefold)



KELLY CLARKSON




















REY MYSTERIO



JOHN CENA




PEYTON SAWYER (as played by Hilarie Burton)

Literary Piece: Two

Author’s Note: It’s not what you think.

Originally written: November 3, 2009

He’s staring at me, waiting for me to tell him what I’m thinking. I stare back politely and say I’m not yet ready. My soul feels unprepared to be bared.

He goes on to mock me with his blank face. Sometimes he just blinks in synchrony to the ticking clock. As for me, I just clutch to my guard and not let a glimpse of my flesh show. He’s waiting for me to give myself to him.

He comforts me. He says “Trust me. I will protect you every step of the way. As you touch me, I’ll lead you. We will move in synchrony.”

All of a sudden we are one. He did as he promised: he led me as we moved in synchrony. More importantly he made me feel safe. I poured my heart, I poured my soul. He took them with respect. As the ink dries up, I’m glad to say: we did it.

Monday, January 4, 2010

10 Most Awesome Things About The Past Decade That Shaped My Life So Far

The 2000s was a memorable decade. Not all the memories are good, not all are bad, but they shaped my life nonetheless. I picked out ten memorable and (wait for it) AWESOME moments/facts from the past decade.

10. Reading books by Bob Ong and Paulo Coelho that taught me a lot about life (like love, school, dealing with trials that come, etc.).

9. The Harry Potter phenomenon made me love literature and that's a huge help for me as a writer.

8. Technology in the form of the internet helped me establish myself as a writer especially with blogs. Social networking sites and text messages helped me maintain relationships.

7. Watching great movies and TV shows that made me laugh, cry, think, hold my breath, and most of all inspire me in my writing and influence me positively with how I look at life.

6. Listening to great musicians like Linkin Park, Avenged Sevenfold, Fall Out Boy, Papa Roach, Paramore, American Idol contestants, to name some.

5. Graduating from elementary and high school, then entering college.

4. Pursuing my passion for writing by blogging, joining the school newspaper staff in high school senior year, writing fan fictions, and having an essay published in one the city's local newspapers.

3. Establishing friendships with people who deserve to be called "true" and severing ties with people who were hazardous to my mental and emotional health.

2. My family being able to pull through BS. (I don't know if this qualifies as "awesome", but the fact that we really pulled through is... wait for it, awesome!)

1.  Good and bad experiences (that are too many to be mentioned) that taught me about love, life, faith, and life itself.